Now that i think about that night i really have never had a moment with a girl like i did with you. It would had been perfect if we did have sex but still that was a night i will never forget. Damn man i forget you read this shit but still i have to let you know in some kind of way that i really am  happy and sad that we did wat we did. Sad cause idk now man this just make things so wierd no that im a diff person now and im talking to all these girls and idk man things just isnt what they used to be. I mean you have to see it from my point of view we went out two times and until that night, that was our first sexual experience with each other. Plus i was so mad at you for so long that you chose asshole over me just cause i was tryng to show you how you should had been treated. Then come why i am happy gosh yo i dont know where to start i keep acting like you dont be on my mind at all but you do. that night is always on my mind and then i think about us more often than usual. I do wish u was still in the city but your not and we both have to accept that. So i guess what i am saying is i will always have feeling for you and hopefully there can be an “us” again but until then we still have to be friends…for now